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Tried to get rid of the tinnitus by extreme relaxation and lost four days playing videogames. No result. And now, I have my addiction back in addition to this condition. Made a few attempts to quit playing but haven’t succeeded yet. Actually, today there must have been a clear day, and yesterday too, and again—
What’s going on? What am I doing? Where is my power? Where is power? Power! It was really amazing to work on the relationship and invest in making the course of English studies, but after the tinnitus had arrived, I lost the ability to focus on what I committed myself to. The problem is that it’s the first time I have this damn noise at the beginning of the day. It’s really unusual. I never had anything like that for longer than a few days straight, and now it’s been lasting for half a month. I tried to abandon everything including all sorts of information consumption, but in vain. Is it linked to A somehow? Am I stressed due to being with her for too long? I repeat: every time I had this condition, it was connected to English and too much learning. Whenever I turned to something else, some kind of relaxation, the noise immediately disappeared. And now, it’s here for almost 20 days and I do almost nothing in terms of learning! What’s going on? Should I ignore that and just continue to work? Am I getting crazy?
C’mon! It’s all under control, don’t panic!
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